I have a confession to make, and a preposterous one at that.
While I was pregnant with Camden I worried a lot. I worried about something that I know now is completely ridiculous, but at that moment in time kept me up at night.
I just couldn't fathom how I was going to love him as much as I love Riley.
Thing is, I love Riley so intensely. She was my first baby and since the moment they put her up to my face in that operating room to say hello I could not imagine my life without her. It's as if she has always been a part of my heart.
So I couldn't figure out how I was going to make room to love our son the way that I do Riley. I was definitely excited about his arrival, I couldn't wait to meet him, and I loved him already, but there was always the nagging thought of what if it wasn't enough?
Until they held him up to my face and we met for the first time. It was just like The Grinch. My heart grew ten fold, right there on the spot to make room for this sweet little guy.
I love Camden so fiercely. I can't imagine our life without him and just like his sister before him it's as if he has always been a part of my heart and ultimately God's plan for my life.